I went to session yesterday morning, and it was really great! We came up with 2 things for me to plan, to work on over the next 3 weeks. I went on to see my psychiatrist, and ran into my first problem – she was double booked, and I could not see her.
I went off home, and did not stop for the errands I had felt so good about doing, just an hour before. I was wiped out, and my anxiety was high. I felt depression coming on, but I knew it would pass, and I would be okay.
Then the roof fell in. Not literally, but that would actually have been better. I can not say what happened, but it blew me away. I am off Facebook again… this time I think it will be a long time before I go back.
I am physically ill about it. My hands are still shaking. I have not eaten, and have no energy for it. My world just got a lot smaller.
It is so hard to try to be social when you are an agoraphobe… Social Media was a God-send. Was… Now I feel more alone than I ever have been. And I do not know what to do… I can not trust anyone anymore.
This will have a great negative affect on my Blogs as well. The great majority of visitors were FB “friends”. So this too may fade away now.
I don’t know.
